broken ( the player plays the song tat reflects my heart as of now)

how did it felt being broken by sum1?.....
sum1 tat u luv.
yesterdae, after attending to the last dae of my grandpa's wake and the last time i see him,
suppositely shouldn b goin out with cyn but forced myself 2 go juz for her.
went 2 w8 4 her at the train station, called her tat i'm waitin 4 her there... she replied mi with a tone tat has no feelings.

minutes later, i received 2 msgs frm her:
1) "i expected it to be fun but ended up its lyk Shit... i really feel stupid..."
2) "wrong person"

these 2 msg tells mi tat she didn intended 2 let mi noe anithing she felt...... n she dun intend 2 sae it 2 mi... n i'm the 1 tat m8k her felt lyk shit

the 2nd tym i called her, she has ardy left frm the station 2 mit cyn they'all......
tat veri moment, i dunno how i felt, a feeling tat i once felt b4 n haf tried 2 avoid.

i contacted joe n her tat i'm no longer goin and swiftly took out my wallet n got pass the gentry(?) into the train cabin and put on my earphones n turn on my nano.... the tym in the train was long n bitter, dunno y, tears kept trying to escape frm my eyelids, mucus trying to flow out and all the songs tat played on my nano are songs with a sad feeling to it...
i tot i'm stupid, openin my heart to sum1 again n having it smashed into pieces again... the reason of not opening up...... i guess this is the reason. it felt so terrible 2 b hurt by sum1 u luv...

i juz dunno y i shuld b this sad... y? i tot she oways sae i dun luv her??, there are oso tyms i felt little to no feelings 4 her. y am i feeling sad now?? i juz dun wan 2 see her again... it hurts......
this may sound girly n sissy 4 a guy but tats mi, a guy tats lyk a gal mayb??

another 2 msgs she sent hurt even more... iluved 2 c her.. n she said in her msg the way she dressed....

i no longer noe wat i'am typing as i'm no longer in a rational state of mind type or tink animore...

-[ a sad hynm ]- signing off ] -

*This post is oni meant 2 by read n kept in heart, do no approach mi with ani content within this post( especially cynthia, xueli, joe etc etc.......)

Lost of a loved one

26th september 2007. my grandpa passed away calmly. he waited with his last breath for mi n my sisters, his grandchildren to arrive. ttats the dae we're gonna see him. grandpa, i love u. it is so hard 2 bare but it was for the better as he has been suffering.

Fun Chalet with frends

Had a chalet with the usual gang: VJ,Harish,Kevin,Huzaen & Chun Hua + Khatib(?) from Wednesdae to fridae morning.
Vj's mum gave us a lift to the chalet n oni mi n vj were there until 5+ when chun hua n kevin arrived. huzaen arrived around 2+ but left his bag n went off.
harish n khatib arrived around midnight.

had a veri fun tym there. Played Game of life, enjoyed great sound from 2 set of BOSE speakers
barberqued on the 2nd dae, enjoyed some pool, arcade-ing.

Thx 4 the tym guys =) (if ani of them ever read my blog).


fridae evening went 2 marelle's company chalet. reach there around 8+ n started eating XP. i do cook though. satay for my dar dar =D. so happy tat she lyk it. then after some food are cleared , we retired 2 the room and played game of life =). th game ended around 3am....OMFG!!! the nxt dae got code::Xtreme course on Ruby on Rails lor... need 2 reach there by 9am in the morning...
hahah then slp le.... then nxt dae went off 4 course...or a few hrs later

发现爱/發現愛 Love's In The Air - 林俊杰/林俊傑 & 金莎

broken ( the player plays the song tat reflects my heart as of now)

how did it felt being broken by sum1?.....
sum1 tat u luv.
yesterdae, after attending to the last dae of my grandpa's wake and the last time i see him,
suppositely shouldn b goin out with cyn but forced myself 2 go juz for her.
went 2 w8 4 her at the train station, called her tat i'm waitin 4 her there... she replied mi with a tone tat has no feelings.

minutes later, i received 2 msgs frm her:
1) "i expected it to be fun but ended up its lyk Shit... i really feel stupid..."
2) "wrong person"

these 2 msg tells mi tat she didn intended 2 let mi noe anithing she felt...... n she dun intend 2 sae it 2 mi... n i'm the 1 tat m8k her felt lyk shit

the 2nd tym i called her, she has ardy left frm the station 2 mit cyn they'all......
tat veri moment, i dunno how i felt, a feeling tat i once felt b4 n haf tried 2 avoid.

i contacted joe n her tat i'm no longer goin and swiftly took out my wallet n got pass the gentry(?) into the train cabin and put on my earphones n turn on my nano.... the tym in the train was long n bitter, dunno y, tears kept trying to escape frm my eyelids, mucus trying to flow out and all the songs tat played on my nano are songs with a sad feeling to it...
i tot i'm stupid, openin my heart to sum1 again n having it smashed into pieces again... the reason of not opening up...... i guess this is the reason. it felt so terrible 2 b hurt by sum1 u luv...

i juz dunno y i shuld b this sad... y? i tot she oways sae i dun luv her??, there are oso tyms i felt little to no feelings 4 her. y am i feeling sad now?? i juz dun wan 2 see her again... it hurts......
this may sound girly n sissy 4 a guy but tats mi, a guy tats lyk a gal mayb??

another 2 msgs she sent hurt even more... iluved 2 c her.. n she said in her msg the way she dressed....

i no longer noe wat i'am typing as i'm no longer in a rational state of mind type or tink animore...

-[ a sad hynm ]- signing off ] -

*This post is oni meant 2 by read n kept in heart, do no approach mi with ani content within this post( especially cynthia, xueli, joe etc etc.......)

Lost of a loved one

26th september 2007. my grandpa passed away calmly. he waited with his last breath for mi n my sisters, his grandchildren to arrive. ttats the dae we're gonna see him. grandpa, i love u. it is so hard 2 bare but it was for the better as he has been suffering.

Fun Chalet with frends

Had a chalet with the usual gang: VJ,Harish,Kevin,Huzaen & Chun Hua + Khatib(?) from Wednesdae to fridae morning.
Vj's mum gave us a lift to the chalet n oni mi n vj were there until 5+ when chun hua n kevin arrived. huzaen arrived around 2+ but left his bag n went off.
harish n khatib arrived around midnight.

had a veri fun tym there. Played Game of life, enjoyed great sound from 2 set of BOSE speakers
barberqued on the 2nd dae, enjoyed some pool, arcade-ing.

Thx 4 the tym guys =) (if ani of them ever read my blog).


fridae evening went 2 marelle's company chalet. reach there around 8+ n started eating XP. i do cook though. satay for my dar dar =D. so happy tat she lyk it. then after some food are cleared , we retired 2 the room and played game of life =). th game ended around 3am....OMFG!!! the nxt dae got code::Xtreme course on Ruby on Rails lor... need 2 reach there by 9am in the morning...
hahah then slp le.... then nxt dae went off 4 course...or a few hrs later

发现爱/發現愛 Love's In The Air - 林俊杰/林俊傑 & 金莎